News of the Death of my Girlfriend (ADC)
When Samantha was shot she was in intensive care for a couple of days. The night she was shot I had mystical 'telepathic' messages coming to me. I felt I didn't need to go to the hospital because she was sending me messages. So, even prior to the news of her death - I was already having some sort of ESP like communication with her. When I had made plans to go see her at the hospital I heard her 'inner voice' coming to me.
"I don't want you to see me like this. Remember what we talked about. We have to live every day as if it is our last. If this is our last day together - I don't want you to see me like this. I want you to remember us together laughing and sharing good times. This is not a good time for you or for me. Please spare yourself the sight of my body in the shape the gunman left me in."
I was talking to a friend who was in touch with the hospital and her family for me. I was asking him what I should do if I couldn't go to the hospital. He told me,
"You hope for the best and prepare for the worst."
The worst came with a telephone call from my friend. He asked me if I was sitting down. I didn't want to sit down and told him to just tell me. He told me she had died five minutes before he called. He felt I would want to know as soon as possible. I went into a daze. My family was sitting by my side waiting to hear word themselves. I couldn't say a word when I hung up the phone. I just told everyone I needed a few minutes alone. I wanted to die. I didn't want to live anymore. I slowly walked to my bedroom and shut the door. I made it half way to my bed. I was trying to lay down before I passed out. It hit me. The meteor from the sky dropped like a ton of bricks and sent me to my knees. I was crying out for "God's" help and sobbing like a 2 year old.
Then I felt her presence. I knew what it was like when I walked into a room with her - or she had walked into the room with me. I felt her standing behind me. I turned and look over my shoulder while I was still on my knee and what I saw was much like the photo at the top of the page. A white shinning body of light with sparkles glittering inside of it. I hesitated at the sight of it and then heard something tell me,
"Do not be afraid."
It was her 'inner voice' coming to me from this 'figure of light.' It was transparent and I could see through it but it was vivid and bright in my eyes. I was still on the ground with tears and slobber coming out of my mouth and nose. I heard her voice tell me,
"Will you get up off the floor. You look ridiculous. What are you doing sobbing like a baby. Get up and act like a man about this. Don't embarrass yourself in front of me like this."
I just started laughing. My mind was confused. It was strange how I thought 'death' meant the end of something or someone. I started telling her,
"They just told me you was dead. What a cruel joke to play on me. Here you are shinning bright in my eyes like always and cracking jokes and making me laugh - just like usual."
She went on to tell me,
"To them - I am dead. I no longer have a body to reside in in this world. To you - I am still alive because you knew me for the sake of my heart and soul - and not for my worldy body."
That afternoon was the first of many ADC's with the spirit of my girlfriend.
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